Today marks the beginning of the end.
Lord willing, just nine short months
from now, Mark and I both will cross the stage at Christ Covenant
Church to receive our seminary degrees. I get chills just thinking
about it. Sometimes I cry. The Lord has been good to bring us this
far.
I've always loved the first day of
school. In elementary school, I would lie awake all night, wondering
who else would be in my class, if my teacher would be nice and how I was
going to fare with the year's difficult task of say, learning cursive.
I would envision my outfit over and over. A “cool” girl, who was one grade older, lived across
the street. Whatever she had worn the year before on the first day of
school, I would wear the next year. I distinctly remember a floral
silk blouse and matching shorts with white Keds one year.
The first day of seminary is a bit
different. The semester starts, and it feels as if you are already
behind. Perhaps you've read one or two books before arriving.
Inevitably, someone else has finished the reading for all six of his
classes and began working on three research papers.
How many babies has he sustained this morning? And every other day of this summer.
How many babies has he sustained this morning? And every other day of this summer.
Seriously though, the first day of
seminary indicates that it is game on. It begins a season of
focused, intricately calculated time management for Mark and I. Two
class schedules (19 hours of lecture), reading and papers for all
those classes, two babies, church and youth group responsibilities
(which increase in the fall), a commute to Charlotte every day of the week for one of us, a job in the
bookstore, and I've decided to add cooking dinner to the
mix!
I also now have a blog.
When I put the list together like this,
I often have the urge to cry again. But for different reasons. How
will we ever get it all done?
Two things come to mind.
First, it sort of reminds me of how I felt
during the time of our engagement. “I have to be married to
him, forever?!? How in the world will we survive all those
days?”
The answer. One day at a time. We rely on the Lord for his
continued grace and pray that he would manifest the fruits of the
spirit in our hearts.
Love. Joy. Peace. Patience. Kindness.
Goodness. Gentleness. Faithfulness. Self-control.
Second, viewing the schedule with such dread is essentially the same thing as believing a lie. Let's break it down.
Class Schedule (Lectures, Reading,
Papers): I love class! My eyes have continually been opened up
to the incredible truth in God's Word. There is no area of study that
I have ever enjoyed so much or grown so much in. It is work. But, it
is good work.
Babies: I love my kids! Samara
is talking a ton and has recently began using her imagination. Mark
poked her on the back, and she said to me, “I think that was a
giant.” I said, “A giant? Where did he come from?” She replied
matter-of-factly, “I think the supermarket!” Seriously, is there
a better kind of conversation out there?
Hudson has been rocking back and forth
on his hind-legs, which means crawling is just around the corner.
Obviously, this involves craziness and some more baby-proofing, but
it is amazing as well. He is lively, chatty, and smiley. I like being
around him.
Church and Youth Group: We love
our church! In fact, we love it so much that we are in school to work
for a church full-time. We are building good relationships with our
students and are excited to dig in this year.
Commute to Charlotte: I sometimes
enjoy the commute. I use is to catch up on my phone calls and to
mentally write blogs. Mark studies. All in all, the drive is usually
well-spent.
Job in the Bookstore: Mark loves
his job, and I like the extra money. It's a win-win most of the time.
Cooking Dinner: I love eating
with my family! In the midst of our hectic schedules, committing to
dinner as a family is crucial for us all continuing to communicate
with each other. Thus, though you know I don't love to cook … I do
love to reap the benefits of doing so!
Blog: I love blogging! Seminary
requires a lot of intense, difficult reading as well as serious,
research based paper writing. Blogging is fun writing and a very
welcome outlet for my brain.
Do you ever find yourself complaining
about your schedule and the busyness of your life? Have you ever
tried to break it down in a similar way?
Seminary has been a constant journey of
figuring out how to juggle many moving parts. We have been in
seminary most of our married life, most of Samara's life, and all of
Hudson's life. We started off with the minimum amount of commitments.
It's
funny, because at the time, those commitments seemed crazy. Now, it would be cake.
Have I mentioned how good the Lord is?
As your life transitions this fall,
with returning to school or simply returning to viewing football
games each Saturday, take a moment to consider a few things.
What does your schedule actually
look like?
Are you spending your time well?
Are you complaining about things you
actually enjoy?
Do you need to make adjustments?
I think it's a good exercise to
occasionally take inventory of one's life. As I said in my first
post, we become who we are based on the decisions we make day by day.
I'll check back in December at the end
of the semester, right around finals time. Perhaps my attitude will
not be so optimistic.
Then, I'll check back again in May. And
as my neighbor Marcus would say, the party will be on!
There may be a few tears as well.
Lesson Learned: Times of transition are a good time to reflect and consider how you spend your time.
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hahah Katherine. I remember that outfit too. I mean, not for nothing-- but it was pretty cool ;) good luck in school!!
ReplyDeleteSuzanne! I can't believe you read this post. That is so fun! Girl, I still pay attention to your clothes, even if it is via facebook!
Deletehahah aww you're sweet!
DeleteHi Katherine,
ReplyDeleteI am sure you will both do well. Like the blog upgrades.
Love,
Dad
Hey Dad, Thanks for the encouragement.
DeleteBy upgrades, do you mean it was easier for you to post a comment? I changed this one thing and have been wondering if it made a difference.
Love you!
I was referring to the categories at the top and the "A Link-Up Partier" which directs your readers to other blog sites that you have found interesting. It is kind of like referring people to various authors or even other people as contacts. Time is one of our most precious commodities and so it is nice to find pearls of advice such as who to spend your time communicating with. As we all know, the world is filled with a lot of "wannabes". People “wannbe” the expert on politics or cars, or fashion, or the latest presidential statement, but really just want to be heard which isn’t bad in itself. I just happen to believe that communication, especially written and especially public should be well thought out. The blog world has given everyone their own podium and many are using it without giving thought to their words. Sadly, many haven't taken the time to invest in relationships which allow good communication and so they end up in this wannabe world. I just finished reading a weekly e-mail from one of the medical directors in the CURE network. It is his form of blogging and because I know he always takes the time to think and pray before he writes, I always take the time to read his words of wisdom. Here is the closing sentence from this week’s post. "We all rely on communication in our lives. To have meaningful communication we must have trust and understanding. To have trust we must walk and talk with integrity. To understand we must listen more than we speak. Good communication is necessary for life In His Grip, Tim He signs every e-mail “In His grip.” So you see, your new Link-Up to Partier" is something that can literally explode in terms of its benefits to your readers. I have time today so I think I will go explore it knowing that I won’t be wasting my time.
ReplyDeleteMy new posting ability is related to creating a new google account.
Hey Dad, Awesome comment and really good food for thought. I'm finding blogging difficult in that, it is very easy to be totally yourself at the beginning. However, once you start researching and reading other blogs, there is a tendency to blend and have the potential to become super boring!
DeleteA Link-up Party is a platform where weekly, you go to a specific site and all sorts of bloggers link-up a post. Some parties are more specific - say all recipes and others are very open. You link up your post and you take time reading others. I do think it will prove to be a good way to find other blogs that I really enjoy. However, right now, I've only been linking up for about a week, which is not near enough time to filter. Most link-up parties want you to put a link back to their site so other people can find them.
I do hope to get to the point where everything I link you to is worth your time. However, I have to apologize. I'm afraid you may find a lot of these about decorating, being a mom, crafting, recipes, and so on. You may also find some really interesting stuff. It just isn't filtered yet.
On the side of the blog, I have a list called "Sources of Knowledge." These are the blogs I read consistently.
I think what you are talking about has a lot do with valuing your readers and with readers valuing one another.
I'm glad you find it worth you time to read my blog!